Dear 15 year old Chrisselle,
I know what you’re going through, and I know it’s hard but I’ve got some things to tell you so please just listen. Don’t lock yourself in your room and ignore me, or write in your diary that nobody gets it, because I do. I really, really do.
You think that you need to grow up already, you think that you need to have lots of friends so that you’re not lonely, you think you need to be in a relationship so that you’re not alone and you feel like you don’t fit in… anywhere, never mind your clothes. You think you need all these things just to be happy, but trust me you don’t.
All you need to be happy is self-belief, true friends, real family and determination to make your dreams come true – because believe me you can. Heck, you already HAVE. If you only knew where you’re going to be in six years then you would laugh at what your thoughts on the world are at this moment.
You’re probably thinking to yourself “Yeah, well that’s great. But I don’t have any of THAT either!” well, honey, you’re wrong. You have some of the best friends that you could ever wish for, sometimes it may not feel like that, but trust me they are. They have their own stuff going on too, but that doesn’t mean that they’re not there for you or that they don’t love the bones of you. AS for family, every family has drama but as you get older you’re going to discover who is really there for you and who isn’t, and those who stick by you are some of the best human beings on this planet.
In a few years you’re going to meet people who are going to change your life, at times it won’t feel like it’s for the best, but in the long term it is. They’re going to make you stronger, wiser and braver than you ever thought you could be. You’re going to use these qualities to change other people’s lives and I guarantee you that that will be the best feeling in the world.
You’ll find love and loss love as you grow, but those people will impact your life in ways you never thought possible. Then one day when you think that you’re fine on your own, you’re going to meet someone who you never thought could exist. He’s perfect in every single way, and he’ll become your best friend, your lover, your rock and more importantly your future.
My message to you is to stop stressing just now. Enjoy these years of your life because soon you’ll be facing all the stresses of adulthood and wishing for these problems instead. Life gets better when you start living it, so start. You’re alive but you’re not living, that’s the only change you need to make right now. Make that change and everything else will follow.
Also, I love you. Mum loves you. Dad loves you. Your siblings love you. You’re going to find out that your best friend has been beside you since you were born in the shape of your annoying big sister.
22 years old.
P.S. Stop thinking you’re ugly, worthless and need to make changes to your looks. You’re beautiful.